A few days ago I went biking. I felt a prompting to stop under a network of electrical overhead wires. The Lord reminded me of a very traumatic incident when I got electrocuted and died! At first I didn’t want to be reminded of the event, but as I have learned on my journey with Jesus, He sometimes would take me back to places to either teach me something or do a healing work in my heart. Here is the full story of the event, as I described in my book, When Gay Comes Home.
I was only eleven when my family and I went with some friends to Hibberdene (South Africa) for a vacation on the coast. On this particular day, the wind was whipping fiercely and we could only tolerate being on the beach for a little while. On our way back to the chalet where we were staying, something terrible happened. The high winds caused the overhead power lines to touch, with one of the lines melting and falling down. One end of the melted wire hit the ground and stayed there, while the other end remained attached to the pole. It looked like the pole had been anchored. In my excitement to be first to have a shower, I ran on ahead of my parents. When I saw the wire, I decided to grab on and swing myself around – I just wanted to have some fun! The moment I touched it, seventy-five thousand volts entered my body and threw me to the ground. The live wire clung to my left arm like a magnet, the electric shock causing my muscles to contract. My hand and elbow came stuck to my body, making it impossible to pry the wire free.
When my parents and the people around us became aware of what had happened, they all wanted desperately to get the wire off – but if anyone touched me, the electrical current would flow through them, too. Everyone was wet from swimming in the ocean, and water and electricity do not go together. Many people tried different methods to remove the wire, with no success. Finally, my dad took off his new tennis shoes and, risking his life, folded one in half and pulled the wire off me.But by this time, I was already dead. Our friends put a sheet over me and led my mom away, because I was gone. When my mom entered the chalet, devastated and in shock, she suddenly remembered that she was trained in cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR). She immediately ran outside and began CPR. I didn’t respond. She tried several times, but it wasn’t until she told herself, “Just one more try!” that I finally gasped for air.
My parents took me to a doctor to have me checked over to make sure I was okay. The hospital staff figured I had been dead for about five minutes, but after extensive tests the doctor concluded I was totally fine. No brain damage after being dead for five minutes!
There’s even more to the story. It was no coincidence that my dad had that tennis shoe he used to pull off the wire. After buying the new shoes, he’d told my mom that the shoe salesman had cheated him by selling him one shoe with a crack in it. Because of this crack, he had been able to fold it in half. The defect helped to save my life. God can use anything to save us. I had a second chance. God saved my life because He had a plan.
You may ask where is this story going. Well, that false anchor literally killed me. The idea of swinging around it was suppose to bring me pleasure, but because it was a false anchor it killed me. As I kept standing there (under the electrical overhead wires) I felt the Lord showing me false anchors in my own life. And I am thinking : how often do we all engage in grasping for false anchors , things we think will bring truth or pleasure, but they actually can kill us, emotionally, physically or spiritually?
The Lord wants to be our ultimate anchor of hope but many times we trust in other things, we literally become idolaters . “We give supreme devotion to anyone or anything other than God. ” (Rev 21: 8). These things or people can become false anchors that eventually kill us, not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually.
Here are just a few examples of false anchors…that kill.
I encounter many persons who journey with some kind of sexual dysphoria, to name just one: same-sex attractions. Some refuse to surrender to God. Others want to please their flesh by living a homosexual lifestyle and live for God at the same time This of course in not possible. Instead of spending time with God and listening to His Word, they rather listen to people who already embrace a homosexual lifestyle. Or worse, they listen to some doctors or some psychiatrists who will encourage them to get a sex change, as this “will make them happy”. They will put their trust in them – believe the lies they are told, thus starting to trust false anchors. As they listen and follow their false anchors, they will be encouraged to embrace a lifestyle of following the flesh, which eventually will separate them from God. They think a sex change will change them – which is false. Removing body parts will never change your DNA! And practicing a homosexual behavior will create distance between a person and God (even though some people will disagree with me), and eventually their relationship with God will wither and eventually become none existing. This is a dangerous path to be on, Trusting these false anchors is not life giving and can result in being separated from God for eternity.
Others put their trust in alcohol. It becomes their “go to” when things are tough. I know this too well. There was a time in my life when I drank way too much, I trusted my glass/es of red wine more than I trusted God! It “helped” to cope in so many ways, or so I thought. It only treated some symptoms and I didn’t deal with the root issues I was struggling with! This false anchor certainly didn’t help me to live fully, in fact this destructive behavior was slowly killing me.
Others put their trust in medication or all kinds of drugs – another false anchor. Just the other night, I woke up with severe back pain. I didn’t think twice, just reached for my bottle with anti-inflammatory medication. The next morning, the Lord pressed upon my heart, that I should reach out to Him first, in all circumstances. And I needed to repent! I am not saying we should not take medication, but what/who do I trust first and the most? The painkiller or God? I want HIM to be my anchor whom I trust and where I run into first! And of course we all know the consequences of drug addictions – many have physically died because of it. So this is a false anchor too!
Food can also become a false anchor, something many people struggle with. We eat to fill a longing in our hearts. This false anchor is not life giving either, in fact it can cause severe illnesses which can also kill.
Or religion, versus having an intimate relationship with Jesus. We read a daily devotion, pray for 5 minutes and go to church on Sundays, but the rest of the time we live no different than the world around us. We tick it off our box, saying we did our religious duty. This is a false anchor which won’t save us. In fact it will cause a shipwreck! I found this passage very interesting: “The church drifted from its course for most of the church age. This began when God’s people started worshiping the temple of the Lord more that the Lord of the temple! Some started worshiping individual truths more than the Truth Himself. All of this let to a great shipwreck from which we are still recovering.” (Rick Joyner, The Path). Our religious duty is a false anchor. It is a sign of being lukewarm and God is clear in Revelation 3:16…”because you are lukewarm and neither cold or hot, I will spew you out of my mouth!” I think this is clear how deadly this false anchor can get!
So as I stood there (under the network of electrical overhead wires) and listening to God, this all came to mind: “Wilna, you remember that electrical shock right? It was a painful and traumatic event. You thought the wire was an anchor but it was a false anchor. It killed you. I want to teach you this: Put all your trust in Me. I am your true Anchor. Not only that, but I anchor you in Me, so that you can take the “electricity”, My power, all over the place. Cling to me as the wire was clinging to your arm, sending the electricity through your body. Your body became the portal of electrical power when others touched you! As you cling to Me, your true anchor it will have the same results! Its’ not your power, but Mine flowing in and through you! Be aware of false anchors in your life. No person or thing can take My place. Put your trust totally in Me. I am your anchor, your hope, your salvation, your victory, your righteousness, your all in all, your strength, your lover, your rock, your maker, your ultimate power!”
WOW! Taking me back to that traumatic scene was so worth it!
God wants us to trust Him, He wants to be our true Anchor. When we trust Him fully, when He becomes our only steadfast anchor , nothing can separate us from Him and we will live with Him forever. When He is our anchor, He becomes our hope and He will strengthen us to overcome darkness. He will also help us to recognize and let go of those false anchors and replace them with our steadfast anchor, Jesus Himself. He promises it in His Word:
19 [Now] we have this [hope] as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul [it cannot slip and it cannot break down under whoever steps out upon it—a hope] that reaches farther and enters into [the very certainty of the Presence] within the veil, 20 Where Jesus has entered in for us [in advance], a Forerunner having become a High Priest forever…” (Hebr 6:19,20 AMPC)
And here is another beautiful verse:
I have come as Light into the world, so that everyone who believes and trusts in Me [as Savior—all those who anchor their hope in Me and rely on the truth of My message] will not continue to live in darkness. (John 12:46 AMP)
We have this certain hope like a strong, unbreakable anchor holding our souls to God himself. Our anchor of hope is fastened to the mercy seat which sits in the heavenly realm beyond the sacred threshold, and where Jesus, our forerunner, has gone in before us. He is now and forever our royal Priest like Melchizedek. (Hebr 6:19,20 TPT)
False anchors...they kill! Our steadfast unbreakable ANCHOR, JESUS, gives us life! It’s worth it to put all our trust in Him! And we shall live!
To conclude this blog with a prayer…
Lord, I want to make you my steadfast anchor, my ultimate power source, and the source of true life and love. Please make me aware of those false anchors I have, or point them out . Help me to not trust in them, but to trust fully in you at all times. Help me to walk away from those things that trip me up. I want to burn for you, I don’t want to be lukewarm. I want to be salt and light to the world around me, but I know I need to be anchored in you first and foremost. I need your help Jesus. I am so sorry for putting my trust in false anchors, please forgive me. I want you to be my only anchor. I receive your forgiveness, thank you Lord, Amen.